Post by Girlzilla on Mar 21, 2011 19:17:27 GMT -5
((This takes place after Darkness Falls))
I lay on the floor of the hanger, unsure if I’m awake or asleep. These days, its all just a continuous blur of exhaustion. My skin feels hot, especially against the cold metal flooring. You would think that the chill against my back would be a bit of relief, but it isn’t. It just makes me ache more. That’s the worst part. The constant aching. My face aches, my bones ache, my muscles ache. I must have come down with a nasty bug, because that seems to be the only way I could feel this bad. And even if I wasn’t sick, I doubt I’d be sleeping. The stinging ordure of my own sweat fills each of my breaths, making me want to gag. I’m rotting from the outside in.
I blink, and the hanger has disappeared. I’m standing in the kitchen, the door is wide open, the soft light spilling out. Another blackout. They’ve been happening more and more lately. I’ll just find myself in different parts of the campus, from out of the blue. It doesn’t surprise me, I’ve gotten so little sleep that its only natural I’m losing my grip on things. I look over the inventory, my eyes drifting casually over each item, before settling on a large ham, or at least the remains of one, leftovers with a plate or from dinner a few nights ago. My mouth starts watering a little, the cool scent of its juicy skin flooding my nostrils. I grab it, not bothering utensils. Just a late night snack. I tear off a fistful, biting into it. Oh, it’s delicious. Another bite, and a third.
Its morning. I turn my head slowly, trying to recall when exactly the sun came up. The ham is gone, just a few scraps of bone left on the plate. I must have drifted off at some point. Guess the snack helped calm my nerves a bit. I drop my dish of fin the sink, heading off to the bathroom to get cleaned up. It takes me longer than I expected, not to get cleaned up, just to find my way to the restroom. I keep getting turned around. Urg, my head is killing me. I half stumble into the restroom, heading to the sink. I rest my hands on the rim of the sink, which instantly snaps under my weight. Water starts pouring out of the all, slashing against my face. I growl with annoyance, reaching out and grabbing a hold of the damaged pipe, squeezing it till it closes shut.
Its then that I actually look at myself in the mirror. My hair is a mess, sticking up all over the place. I can see bits of skin stuck in it, and it takes me a good fifteen seconds to remember that it must have come from the ham. My skin is pale and blotchy, and my eyes are marked with deep set bags. I reach out to turn the knob of the sink, so I can wash off. I grab at the air for a few moments. Where did the sink…oh, yes, I broke it. My head hurts to much, I cant focus on it. I need to sleep. I stumble back out of the restroom, Trying to head back to the hanger. Each step is exhausting, and it hurts so much. My joins scream at me like rusty hinges, begging me to stop.
[shadow=green,left,100]“Just be quiet”[/shadow]
I mumble. I’m not sure who I was talking to, but I just want them to stop talking. Its making my headache worse. I close my eyes, covering my ears, listening to the thundering boom of my heartbeat. I clench my teeth together, hoping to drown the Noise out.
[shadow=green,left,200]“Why dose it hurt so much?” [/shadow]I sob under my breath. I try to lean against the wall, but I misjudge the distance and I fall over onto the floor. I cant tell you how long I must have laid there. My vision jumped again. Sitting on the floor now. The hallways has run of somewhere without mean, I’m in class. Why am I in class? Its Saturday. No, wait, it isn’t. I don’t know what day it is. It hurts to think. Oh god it hurts so much. I want to cry, but my eyes are bone dry. I cant even hear anything, the noise is just drowned out into this flat booming. I look down at the floor, and see there’s a paper in front of me. A test? I don’t remember there being any tests. When did this happen. I take hold of my pencil, and find my hands are shaking, I use my left hand to help steady my right, but it doesn’t slow the shaking down.
It hurts, my hands hurt, my skin hurts. It hurts just like. I push the pencil against the paper. First line of the test: Name_____. Alice Vance. Name, Alice Vance. How? Alice Vance. How do I…? Alice Vance. I cant do it! Alice…? I can’t even write my own goddamn name. Alice! Im scared. Gasping, cant breath. It hurts Like. Name?! Answer Alice! Blacking out. Can’t breathe. Heart is racing. It hurts Like before. Shaking so hard, Screaming. Can’t breath! Name?!
[shadow=green,left,300]“ALICE!”[/shadow]
I look up, wide eyed, breathing harder than I knew I could. Everyone is looking down at me, saying my name over and over again. It hurts like before. My head is spinning. I feel my limbs sprawled out on the floor. What happened? When did I get here? Who are these people?! WHO THE FUCK ARE THESE PEOPLE!?! So much pain, rushing through me. My heartbeat pushing it out, into my blood, into my skin and muscles and bones and nerves, into every last corner of my body. I want to die. Nobody can be in this much pain and still be alive. Make it stop. It hurts like Before when. No, can’t. The eyes. All these people and their eyes, looking at me. I can feel them, burning my skin, scraping my bones and blood. Make it stop. I’ll MAKE THEM STOP.
My lips curl back into a snarl, eyes darting about at them, my claws swinging wildly. No…not claws. No nails. Fingers, palm. Hand. Hands swinging wildly. I jump to my feet, but I don’t make it. My body is heavy, and the pain is blinding me. I fall over, smacking my head. My ears start ringing. I press my palms into my eyes, trying to push the ache away as I scream. My bellows turn into sobs, and I don’t even know why. This is all wrong. This cant be. Its hurts like before when I. hurts so bad. I start trembling , my whole body shaking. I push myself up, the motions feeling strange. This isn’t my body, these aren’t my muscles. I Push myself up, making it to a standing position before staggering forward, blind and aching. The wall. I break through it, screaming. In a hallway now. I see light. Outside? Safe. I need to be outside. I start walking, stumbling. Something hits my head. I look up. Ceiling? Why is the ceiling here. No, pressing against me. To small. I squat down, everything so small. I crawl, hands and knee’s, crushing anything that gets in my way. Pressing me down, crushing. To small. I drag myself along on my belly. It hurts like before when I.
Another wall in front of me. I need to be outside. I put my hand against the wall. No…not my hand. Scaley, green. Not my hand. Not my hand. Pressing against the wall. . It cracks, then crumbles. I crawl through, squeezing. My skin is burning. Its so hot. Outside is safe. Big, open, sunlight on my scales. So warm. Wind in my hair. Cant focus. I look down at the school. Everything is so tiny. I see a hole in the wall. Its so small, how did I possibly manage to fit through that? There are rags on the ground. A memory bubbles up. Clothing. Mine. My skin is bare to the world. I don’t care. So many wonderful new senses, taking in the world. It still hurts. It hurts like before when I changed.
A convulsion hits me, knocking me clean off my feet. I feel it. My back, burning. The pressure against my hips. Bones snapping, growing into a new shape. Skin slithering around it. I scream my bellows long and loud. My tail! My tail thrashes behind me, cracking the air as it whips to and fro. My claws dig into the loose earth, feeling the soil in my palm.
It feels so good. So wonderful. All this energy, all this strength inside me. It doesn’t hurt anymore. All except for my stomach, which aches. Hunger. I sniff the air tentatively. Sweat, lots of it. Meaty bodies, delicious meats. Flavorful, yummy, squishy, bloody bodies. A voice whispers to me, telling me to stop. No..cant hear it. Hungry. Free.
I look down again, seeing people below. Tiny, tiny people. Bugs. Urges burst up to the surface. Rip, tear, smash, crush, eat. Kill them. Eat them. Hungry.
I open my lips and roar, with the fury that I feel inside, letting my power burn so brightly. It feels so good. All this might, this primal and savage strength. Mine. Free.
Hungry.
I lay on the floor of the hanger, unsure if I’m awake or asleep. These days, its all just a continuous blur of exhaustion. My skin feels hot, especially against the cold metal flooring. You would think that the chill against my back would be a bit of relief, but it isn’t. It just makes me ache more. That’s the worst part. The constant aching. My face aches, my bones ache, my muscles ache. I must have come down with a nasty bug, because that seems to be the only way I could feel this bad. And even if I wasn’t sick, I doubt I’d be sleeping. The stinging ordure of my own sweat fills each of my breaths, making me want to gag. I’m rotting from the outside in.
I blink, and the hanger has disappeared. I’m standing in the kitchen, the door is wide open, the soft light spilling out. Another blackout. They’ve been happening more and more lately. I’ll just find myself in different parts of the campus, from out of the blue. It doesn’t surprise me, I’ve gotten so little sleep that its only natural I’m losing my grip on things. I look over the inventory, my eyes drifting casually over each item, before settling on a large ham, or at least the remains of one, leftovers with a plate or from dinner a few nights ago. My mouth starts watering a little, the cool scent of its juicy skin flooding my nostrils. I grab it, not bothering utensils. Just a late night snack. I tear off a fistful, biting into it. Oh, it’s delicious. Another bite, and a third.
Its morning. I turn my head slowly, trying to recall when exactly the sun came up. The ham is gone, just a few scraps of bone left on the plate. I must have drifted off at some point. Guess the snack helped calm my nerves a bit. I drop my dish of fin the sink, heading off to the bathroom to get cleaned up. It takes me longer than I expected, not to get cleaned up, just to find my way to the restroom. I keep getting turned around. Urg, my head is killing me. I half stumble into the restroom, heading to the sink. I rest my hands on the rim of the sink, which instantly snaps under my weight. Water starts pouring out of the all, slashing against my face. I growl with annoyance, reaching out and grabbing a hold of the damaged pipe, squeezing it till it closes shut.
Its then that I actually look at myself in the mirror. My hair is a mess, sticking up all over the place. I can see bits of skin stuck in it, and it takes me a good fifteen seconds to remember that it must have come from the ham. My skin is pale and blotchy, and my eyes are marked with deep set bags. I reach out to turn the knob of the sink, so I can wash off. I grab at the air for a few moments. Where did the sink…oh, yes, I broke it. My head hurts to much, I cant focus on it. I need to sleep. I stumble back out of the restroom, Trying to head back to the hanger. Each step is exhausting, and it hurts so much. My joins scream at me like rusty hinges, begging me to stop.
[shadow=green,left,100]“Just be quiet”[/shadow]
I mumble. I’m not sure who I was talking to, but I just want them to stop talking. Its making my headache worse. I close my eyes, covering my ears, listening to the thundering boom of my heartbeat. I clench my teeth together, hoping to drown the Noise out.
[shadow=green,left,200]“Why dose it hurt so much?” [/shadow]I sob under my breath. I try to lean against the wall, but I misjudge the distance and I fall over onto the floor. I cant tell you how long I must have laid there. My vision jumped again. Sitting on the floor now. The hallways has run of somewhere without mean, I’m in class. Why am I in class? Its Saturday. No, wait, it isn’t. I don’t know what day it is. It hurts to think. Oh god it hurts so much. I want to cry, but my eyes are bone dry. I cant even hear anything, the noise is just drowned out into this flat booming. I look down at the floor, and see there’s a paper in front of me. A test? I don’t remember there being any tests. When did this happen. I take hold of my pencil, and find my hands are shaking, I use my left hand to help steady my right, but it doesn’t slow the shaking down.
It hurts, my hands hurt, my skin hurts. It hurts just like. I push the pencil against the paper. First line of the test: Name_____. Alice Vance. Name, Alice Vance. How? Alice Vance. How do I…? Alice Vance. I cant do it! Alice…? I can’t even write my own goddamn name. Alice! Im scared. Gasping, cant breath. It hurts Like. Name?! Answer Alice! Blacking out. Can’t breathe. Heart is racing. It hurts Like before. Shaking so hard, Screaming. Can’t breath! Name?!
[shadow=green,left,300]“ALICE!”[/shadow]
I look up, wide eyed, breathing harder than I knew I could. Everyone is looking down at me, saying my name over and over again. It hurts like before. My head is spinning. I feel my limbs sprawled out on the floor. What happened? When did I get here? Who are these people?! WHO THE FUCK ARE THESE PEOPLE!?! So much pain, rushing through me. My heartbeat pushing it out, into my blood, into my skin and muscles and bones and nerves, into every last corner of my body. I want to die. Nobody can be in this much pain and still be alive. Make it stop. It hurts like Before when. No, can’t. The eyes. All these people and their eyes, looking at me. I can feel them, burning my skin, scraping my bones and blood. Make it stop. I’ll MAKE THEM STOP.
My lips curl back into a snarl, eyes darting about at them, my claws swinging wildly. No…not claws. No nails. Fingers, palm. Hand. Hands swinging wildly. I jump to my feet, but I don’t make it. My body is heavy, and the pain is blinding me. I fall over, smacking my head. My ears start ringing. I press my palms into my eyes, trying to push the ache away as I scream. My bellows turn into sobs, and I don’t even know why. This is all wrong. This cant be. Its hurts like before when I. hurts so bad. I start trembling , my whole body shaking. I push myself up, the motions feeling strange. This isn’t my body, these aren’t my muscles. I Push myself up, making it to a standing position before staggering forward, blind and aching. The wall. I break through it, screaming. In a hallway now. I see light. Outside? Safe. I need to be outside. I start walking, stumbling. Something hits my head. I look up. Ceiling? Why is the ceiling here. No, pressing against me. To small. I squat down, everything so small. I crawl, hands and knee’s, crushing anything that gets in my way. Pressing me down, crushing. To small. I drag myself along on my belly. It hurts like before when I.
Another wall in front of me. I need to be outside. I put my hand against the wall. No…not my hand. Scaley, green. Not my hand. Not my hand. Pressing against the wall. . It cracks, then crumbles. I crawl through, squeezing. My skin is burning. Its so hot. Outside is safe. Big, open, sunlight on my scales. So warm. Wind in my hair. Cant focus. I look down at the school. Everything is so tiny. I see a hole in the wall. Its so small, how did I possibly manage to fit through that? There are rags on the ground. A memory bubbles up. Clothing. Mine. My skin is bare to the world. I don’t care. So many wonderful new senses, taking in the world. It still hurts. It hurts like before when I changed.
A convulsion hits me, knocking me clean off my feet. I feel it. My back, burning. The pressure against my hips. Bones snapping, growing into a new shape. Skin slithering around it. I scream my bellows long and loud. My tail! My tail thrashes behind me, cracking the air as it whips to and fro. My claws dig into the loose earth, feeling the soil in my palm.
It feels so good. So wonderful. All this energy, all this strength inside me. It doesn’t hurt anymore. All except for my stomach, which aches. Hunger. I sniff the air tentatively. Sweat, lots of it. Meaty bodies, delicious meats. Flavorful, yummy, squishy, bloody bodies. A voice whispers to me, telling me to stop. No..cant hear it. Hungry. Free.
I look down again, seeing people below. Tiny, tiny people. Bugs. Urges burst up to the surface. Rip, tear, smash, crush, eat. Kill them. Eat them. Hungry.
I open my lips and roar, with the fury that I feel inside, letting my power burn so brightly. It feels so good. All this might, this primal and savage strength. Mine. Free.
Hungry.